drained

these past two days have drained my emotions and today just pushed it over the top.
good thing I have no plans for tomorrow so my day will consist of sleep and homework.

but then there were some good moments, really good. and I don't know why but that one action by a friend made me feel calm.

why why why?!?!?!

hello blogging world, it's been a while.

I just need to vent about my latest issue.

Today's 106.5 is no more now it's "Rock 106.5"
AHHHHHH!!!!!!

Part of me died. How am I supposed to enjoy Christmas music after Halloween now?
How am I supposed to listen to TWO radio stations while driving on Sunday's. Most importantly how am I supposed to listen to Show Tunes Saturday Night?!?!?!

That was my favorite thing about driving on Saturdays!!!!

It's gone!
NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

waiting,waiting,waiting....

waiting,
waiting,waiting,
waiting,waiting,waiting

waiting,waiting,waiting, waiting,

waiting,waiting,                       waiting, waiting

waiting,waiting,waiting,   I hate it so much   waiting,waiting,waiting
waiting,waiting,waiting    It is driving me mad.   waiting,waiting,waiting,

waiting,waiting,   Just til tomorrow, I can wait. I think.  waiting,waiting

waiting,waiting,    The butterflies are eating me up.    waiting, waiting
waiting,waiting                  waiting, waiting.
waiting,waiting,waiting,waiting,
waiting,waiting,waiting,
waiting,waiting,
waiting.

(as you can tell, I am very impatient at the moment.)

i guess i just had faith

I just had faith that the American people would have educated themselves a little more.

I thought that maybe they would remember all the suffering we've gone through as a nation these past 4 years.

I know everyone says, "Just remember The Lord has a plan and this is part of it." But this wasn't all the way in the Lord's hands. We have our agency. As my wonderful mother reminded me yesterday, "He gives us just enough rope to pull us up, but with that same amount of rope we can also hang ourselves."

(Thanks for hanging me Ohio and Colorado.)

And yes. The sun came up (well actually, it's cloudy.) and The Lord is on our side, and how grateful I am that He is.

Thanks Mitt for trying to help us pull ourselves up. You would've been the best one to do it.

for something to happen

I know most of you are probably really sick'n'tired of me posting videos but I like em'.
Lately I've been very scared to do something my friend showed me this, and I was a bit more confident (really it was only a bit because I was terrified, but I did it! partially.... anyway.)

my life is exceptional...

Who are my parents for giving me such amazing of a life?
We've had no family problems, no major losses, what is this?

And hey, what about me?
I've never broken a bone, never once have I had some horrible phase in my life of discovering who I am, and I haven't had any near death experiences!

How on Earth am I supposed to get into any colleges with my life?!?


(Note: I am truly grateful for my life and everything I have been blessed with and I wouldn't trade it for anything. But if any of you remember anything from my youth (♪ or childhood ♪) that would be helpful in this situation please remind me :] )

Let's talk stress...

Not the biggest fan of it...

Where is this stress coming from?

The terrible disease of (pause for suspense)

Oldness!

(pretty sure it counts as a disease)

being old, growing up, what ever you'd like to call it, scares me.

a lot.

how do you turn this:

 

to this:

funny thing is I've been so excited for it my whole life and all of the sudden,

(let's say Saturday during the ACT,)

it hit me that I'm old.

Maybe not like OLD

But I'm going to be applying for college in a few months!

Well, try as I might, I couldn't shake this stress.

I slept on it, and at church I realized  I'm the oldest in my Sunday School Class now!

Yikes!

It kind of slipped for a few days until my dad showed me this:

You're probably thinking: so what? It's a guy climbing up a building!

This was filmed at USU one of my 3 main choices for college.

Seeing this just made me think more of that stress.

So I need some MAJOR input here.

BYU, home of the Cougars, has been my choice school my whole life.

Both my parents went there, both my older sisters go there, and I've just grown up loving everything about it. I could probably talk all day about why I want to go to BYU: majors, friends, art programs, etc.

 Never in my life did I really ever want to go anywhere but BYU

 until this year where other colleges started interesting me.

 

USU is my second choice.

Not sure if I desperately want to be an Aggie 

but USU has certainly taken an interest in me 

and I have a slight interest in some of its programs.

Downside? They have some pretty mean sports fans

 and I don't want to be a part of that...

 SVU (for those who don't know) is a small LDS college in Virgina.

It is GOR.GE.OUS.

Look at it! It just makes me sigh!

It has some wonderful programs as well.

It has two major downfalls for me at the moment:

Distance:

I'm not sure how far away from home I want to be on the first year of college.

The two other schools are within in the same state SVU is clear across the country!

Arts/Sports:

Going to a small college outside of Utah;

 if you are good at something here, you're great at it there.

And if you're great at something here, you're the star there.

I don't really want that...

Anyway, any suggestions anyone?

Help on this topic would be very much appreciated.